Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Aaaand that's it.

4 years and 5 months. Not bad. Actually, it wasn't bad at all. I loved every minute of it, and will forever treasure that defining part of my life.

But I have to be in touch with the reality that its now all over. Open my eyes each waking day and just remember to forget it. To put it all behind me.

Thank you, for everything. You changed me, and I am thankful for that.

I am happy that we are ending this with all the respect that we have for each other intact. I am happy that no harsh words were thrown out when we were dealing with it. I am happy that we are mature in dealing with the situation. I am happy that we think and we feel.

But essentially, I will have to find myself again to be able to be really happy, in its most simple definition, again.

As much as I don't want to be too melodramatic about it, this being my very first breakup and nonetheless from a 4year5month relationship is I think too much to handle for me. I've just been too happy for the longest time that I've been blindsided by this much pain.

For now, I continue to pray that I bounce back soon from this emotional torture. I am thankful to friends who have helped me and listened to me. I am truly grateful.

And I am thankful to the world for making me realize that yes, you will continue to roll even if I feel like not rolling.

The best teachers really do not care. They just teach.


Claire said...

Aww Ghoent. I hope you get through this. Personally I've only been to two heartbreaks (and I'm still in the process of accepting the last one) and I guess the best thing to do is to keep yourself busy with many different things and just always look at the bright side of things. :)

babyaииE. said...

This is sad. :( I have been in an extra dramatic breakup in the past and now that I'm in a new one, I cant imagine myself being in that position in the future.
I hope you be ok soon. And that you be able to cope up with it through the help of the people around you. We're also here to keep you company...

ghoent said...

@Claire: thank you. i didn't know you were in the process of healing from a break up din pala, galing mo naman very positive ka parin. kaya din ako "absent" sa pagbabasa ng blogs and all dahil i feel so bitter about the happy world, ayokong makahawa ng aking bad vibes so i was intentionally backing off. pero like you said, im starting to just try and look at the better side of things. =) im starting to feel a lot better na acutally, kaya din nakapagblog na ako about it. =) thank you Claire. =)

ghoent said...

@Babyanne: it's a sad phase talaga. =( pero im picking myself up with the help of friends, and encouraging words from people like you. so super thanks. =) mahirap nga talaga, i never thought that i'd have to go through this, pero now that it's here, im just trying to accept it. thank you, thank you talaga. =)

babyaииE. said...

you're very welcome. :) And its great that you're picking up already. Keep it up and stay happy. :)

Jef Nadala said...

it's alright to be sad but it's not good to stay sad.
i-rakenrol mo ang susunod ghoent, getting excited for you! :)


ghoent said...

Thank you jef! im really trying not to be sad anymore, and i am successful naman most of the time. i just can't get that sincere happiness yet, but i pray and hope and know that i'll get there. thank you jef. huy miss na kita! =( =)

lor said...

Oh no! This is just so sad Ghoent :( I hope you get through this okay, and whole, you know? :) Hugs hugs hugs and more hugs :)

ghoent said...

Sana nga Loreen! kailangang kayanin. Thank youuuuu! hugs hugs at maraaaming hugs! i really need em. salamat super. =)

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